grateful..for mother nature

This pregnancy has whizzed by and suddenly I'm in my final month.  After a highly emotional first trimester, I can honestly say that I have thoroughly enjoyed this pregnancy so, so much.

The beautiful little gift of life growing inside me has been completely and utterly joyous.  We are so in love with this baby already, and very excited to meet the little person who has been a constant source of amusement and wonder to us all these last eight months.

Every time I get up to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night, I walk past our nursery all dark and quiet and think of how in just a few short weeks, it'll be our baby I'm getting up to.  I know it's exhausting, I'm under no illusion of fairytale night time feeds, but I do remember loving those quiet moments, just the two of us, my new baby and I.

My husband wraps his arms around me and his hands barely meet around my tummy.  He's still and quiet, waiting for baby to move and he says how he can't wait to meet this little person, to feel its soft mooshy skin and breathe that new baby smell.

Our boys are careful and suddenly knowing.  They help around the house more, they are considerate of my inability to climb the stairs on a whim, and they look almost expectantly, waiting for me to say its time.

It suddenly feels so close, too close, and a part of me could continue this pregnancy for months, adoring my growing belly, dressing myself up and feeling fabulous.  Then I have a very slow moving day, like today, when every part of my body is telling me to stop, to lie down, nurture myself and prepare for the enormous task that lies ahead.

I'm feeling myself become aware of my body changing, preparing itself to birth this baby, and I'm ready to start focusing on the delivery, feeling that raw, earthy primal instinct that is deep within us all when we become mothers.

I felt this so strongly with our little guy, I was so ready for his birth, and I worried I'd not allowed myself to get there this time.  But here I am, all zen and focused.  Mother Nature is a miraculous thing..

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