My baby went back to school today after a couple of days off sick. I went into his classroom to help the kids with their spelling lists, I love it and I love how they love it too.
I dashed home after that, ran around catching up on all the things that have been left by the wayside with my sick little guy around. I dashed off to the shops to get things for dinner. I dashed around here and there and then suddenly I stopped. I looked out at the sea and this nagging feeling that has been hovering over me for so long, suddenly felt so overwhelming, consuming me completely.
I don't know what it is. A sense of change is looming, and the feeling becomes stronger and stronger all the time. It feels positive and good, but at the same time like knots in my chest.
What is it? When will it happen? How will I know?
I took in our tatts ticket to be checked, just in case we were suddenly millionaires, but no, not that. I polished off a whole packet of white chocolate raspberries which might indicate it's just the time of the month for all those wayward emotions, but no, it's more constant than that.
It's unsettling, it makes my hands sweat a little, makes it hard to breathe, excitement and nerves make me cry a little.
Time will tell..