Sunday, May 20, 2012

grateful..to wander and see the signs

this week I wandered and followed the signs, picking up some treasures along the way..
I wandered while running errands, missed my turn off & discovered beautiful sights.. 
I wandered out with these guys and had delicious coffee and banana bread with poached autumn fruit.. 
I wandered out in the rain and loved rugging up in woollies & bright yellow gumboots..
I wandered outside to catch up with this beautiful guy, sporting my wears and contemplating..
and amidst all this wandering I made time to read in bed at night...
and crochet like a woman possessed...
trying new things, making mistakes and going with the flow...

I've spent this week purposefully wandering, being acutely aware of signs unseen and hoping to recognise the changes I was so certain were on their way.  

What I discovered hit me like a bolt of lightening, and what I discovered was that those changes were happening already. That this feeling of 'changes in the air' was already being lived...by me, right now!

I have been living the moment where all my babies are growing up and are all at school, and it has been such an enormous change.  And so, so emotional.  

My purpose at home was no longer necessary.  It's been a long time, and as I've always said, I have been blessed to have had the opportunity to be a stay at home Mum. It was what we wanted and just the way we planned.  

Now suddenly its over.  I'm scared and excited.  I'm missing my babies and I'm loving the freedom to move forward all at once.  I imagine it might feel something like this when they all grow up and move out too!

It's taken a looong while to come to terms with, but this week I'm grateful to have had time to wander, time to recognise my life changing from the beautiful, treasured world of a stay at home mumma, and onto the next phase.  Exactly what that is, for now, I'm still uncertain...

See what's making other people grateful this week here



9 comments:

  1. Definitely bitter sweet there, I'd say Mel! But yes so very exciting and how astute of you to pick up the real meaning of it all! We can so often let these epiphanies just pass us by.....
    I'm sure you are in for a sweet ride. ♥

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  2. I'll have to come back and read this post somewhere around next January. Just before I leap into the same sort of bittersweet. YIKES! Exciting. And hairy scary.

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  3. I love the word wander. You have captured it beautifully in your pics Mel (as always). Enjoy the time, there is always a new phase just around the corner.

    xoxox

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  4. You have the sweetest little family....loved the signs!

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  5. Having children means life is changing all the time. Your role as a Mother shifts and changes as your children grow into the next stage of their life. Enjoy the journey. x

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  6. The photo story in this post too me on a little holiday. So beautiful, like a breath of fresh air. Thank you for that.

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  7. This is a beautiful post, Mel. I hope you don't mind if I tweet it as one of my avourites this week.

    Keep wandering, beautiful you. x

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  8. the third picture is really pretty. I'm casually encountering a lot of bloggers who make gratitude lists and I like it a lot. It is always inspiring.

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  9. Oh yay Mel. I was only thinking about you a few days ago, wondering if you had discovered what the new, exciting changes would be. Well done you, for raising three beautiful little people, now all off at school. I am dreading this yet know I will love it too, a little time to be me, and not just "mum". I am not sure who this person is anymore, and I look forward to meeting her again one day. Enjoy being you, lovely.

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